in the Hands of the Potter: Effortless

Friday, May 11, 2007

Effortless

I won't try to be eloquent or write well. Mostly because I'm tired and don't want to put energy into making this sound good. But I thought I'd update this blog (shocking, I know) and announce that I'm going to QUIT MY JOB!!

Over the past month or so, I got a call from a friend who asked me if I wanted a job. He works at a nearby hospital in their medicine department, and they were hiring. As I had been having thoughts of leaving my job at some point (frustrated nearly every day), I said sure. He invited me over to the hospital to meet all the other PAs and the docs in the department. So I did. I had lunch with them, chatted, walked around the hospital, and picked up an application. I filled it out, and my friend even stopped by my work to pick it up and take it back to the hospital for me. He talked to people in the department and let me know that they would be interested in me if I was interested in them. I went in and "interviewed" with him ... and he told me that they'd love to have me. I called him the next day and said I was in! They won't be paying me quite as much as I'm making now, but I've come to the place where I realized that my experience and learning medicine is more important than how much money I'm making.

I haven't gotten to the point where I've told my boss or anyone else in the department. I'm not sure how to do it - should I write a letter? Phone call? Meeting? We'll see, I guess. I have to do it this coming week, though, because I have to give a month's notice.

It's been interesting though, because it truly has been effortless on my part. I didn't initiate or work at anything. It honestly just all happened. And I think it's an indication of the will of God. When He is in something, you often don't have to try to make something happen. You may look back and say, "how did I get here?" And you realize that you didn't put effort into something, but it happened without you! That's how I want to live my life. I don't want to be responsible for the decisions I make or the places I go. I want to be completely dependent on Him. I want Him to take care of where I go and what I do, because He is ultimately the One who knows! He is all-knowing. His wisdom is much higher than mine. I'm praying that God would allow me to continue to submit to His will and seek it actively. I praise Him for being willing to work with me, even though I fail so often! Hallelujah for grace. :)

posted by emily @ 10:51 PM

2 Comments:

At 5:04 PM, Anonymous said…

Emily,
First off, I'm happy for you that you have found another place to work before even leaving your current one, congrats!
Secondly,I think you are the type of person that could sit down and talk very openly and honestly with your boss without going into a lot of detail regarding your decision to leave. I am sure whoever your boss is realizes working in an environment such as you do is not an easy job for most people. You are young and just starting out and need to explore other options to see where you feel most useful and comfortable,and that may take awhile.No one should be faulted for that.I'll pray for you and agree in pray with you that our Heavenly Father will make all of this a smooth transition and bless you in many ways :)
Yes, we serve a MIGHTY God, amen!!
Be blessed and bless God.
At 6:25 PM, Emily said…

is this the job that might make you be able to direct the plays next year ? ccause that would be joyous = ] i miss you

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