in the Hands of the Potter: Random thoughts

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Random thoughts

I am sitting here, watching the Patriots play the Chargers, and I figured it might be a good time to blog. The problem is, I don't have anything funny or insightful to say. Usually when I blog, I like to at least make myself laugh or think. But today I will write a random assortment of my thoughts.

I have been having trouble breathing lately. Mostly this past week, I feel like my chest is really tight. Like I have to remind myself to breathe, and when I do breathe, I have to make an extra effort to take a deep breath because otherwise I don't get enough air. It's weird. I wonder if an inhaler might help. OR maybe I'm just anxious or something. It's weird.

I am not looking forward to work this week. Usually we have about 8-10 PA's on at a time. This week we're going to have 4. All the rest of us are on vacation or evenings or something else. And so we're going to get lots of patients. I was thinking today during youth group that maybe I need to get up extra early this week to pray and prepare myself - ask for additional grace and wisdom.

The Bills are terrible. And so is my Fantasy Football team. Somehow, I always manage to play the wrong people. Out of my two quarterbacks, I played the one who got a lot less points. I did manage to start the right tight end. But I'm going to lose anyway, and so I'll be 0-2. I miss my *good team from last year.

Tonight, at youth group, the Lord really spoke to me about something. I am going to be leading two Bible studies this year - a youth and young adult one. And I've been really feeling overwhelmed lately, realizing that I am responsible for these young people. I am the one who has to figure out what God is saying, how He is leading, how to draw people in, what to teach, etc. And tonight, Pastor Josh talked about how we can't do anything without God. But conversely, when we have God, we can do ANYTHING. He reminded us that our ministry flows out of our relationship with God. Fruit comes when we spend time being intimate with Christ. And I realized that I've been drawing on my own strength lately. I've been assuming that *I* have to do all this stuff. And what I really need to do is spend time in fellowship with Jesus .... and it's true- the other things WILL fall into place. I will be more sensitive to His voice. It's the only way I can be effective to do the ministry He's called me to.

And finally ... I am tired. I think maybe I will go to bed early tonight.
That's all. Hopefully I will have more cohesive, interesting thoughts in the near future. :)

posted by emily @ 9:30 PM

3 Comments:

At 10:01 PM, Anonymous said…

Em, You must have heard the quote "Physician, heal thyself." I don't know where it came from, but it is so true. Please take care of yourself and find our what the breathing problem is all about.
I, too, watched that painful game - what's with Losman anyway?
Love you!
At 10:24 PM, emily said…

yeah, he has issues. plus the offensive line is terrible. maybe Trent Edwards would do better?
At 10:24 PM, Anonymous said…

Too bad that Losman is starting to blame everyone else. Yes, the offensive line is bad, but he has to take some of the heat too. Not good to look for excuses - he has had enough time to mature. I would not be surprised to see Trent Edwards playing soon.

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